Memo at midnight: Anxiety… spoils all the fun!

“Get Nervous” is a song by Pat Benatar that is all about anxiety. I listened to it for the first time when I was like 12 or something and even though I liked the song I didn’t know anything about what the word anxiety actually meant. I wish I still didn’t. Even all the way […]

Memo at midnight: Anxiety… spoils all the fun!

How To Deal With Hypochondria: 10 Tips For Health Anxiety

TW: Health anxiety, hypochondria, self harming // Information in this post should not be taken as medical advice. If you’re concerned about anything I talk about in this post, contact your GP. In the Summer of 2019, I suffered from the worst bout of health anxiety I’ve ever had. I spent WEEKS unable to focus […]

How To Deal With Hypochondria: 10 Tips For Health Anxiety


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What is holistic fitness and its types ?

Before discussing about types of holistic fitness, let’s know what do we mean by HOLISTIC FITNESS?  Holistic Fitness focus on  more than just muscles in terms of strength and endurance.  It is basically a health protocol  whose aim is  to enhance the fitness of the complete physical body and emotional health. It  Combines various methods of […]

What is holistic fitness and its types ?

Accept it….

Morning everyone.. Well here I go again. By now u either think who is this crazy anxiety ridden person ( which I totally get by the way) or it may be helping u some way. Hopefully its good either way , a good laugh or like I said helping.

Well accepting you have anxiety is alittle tricky. It can be like any other illness that people dont see on the outside so they dont think there is anything wrong with u really. Like why cant you just go and talk to this person why cant you just meet me for lunch its just us. I have had endless questions from friends and family that they didnt understand when I said it gives me anxiety to where I cant handle it. But none the less eventually on this crazy weird adventure of rediscovering myself as a person with anxiety is accepting it even if other people dont.

Accepting the fact that I am that person with anxiety and actually not fighting it anymore helped me tremendously thru this. I finally didnt care if my family or friends didnt understand what I was going thru. I barely did myself all I know is its something I have and I am not going to let it define me as a person anymore. I am not the only one who is going thru this there are millions of people out there who are going thru it as well. I googled and googled so many times reading stories of people that were going thru exactly what I was going thru. It was almost comforting didnt make me feel like such an outcast or something was horribly wrong with me. And there is definetly hope and a light at the end of this tunnel. Also having a great support system is super helpful. Very few of my friends or family understand it which I dont expect them to. But you will find a bit of comfort in some people or even just one person who will just be there for you and not care. They wont make you feel like something is wrong with they will be by your side no matter what. And if you have one person who does that for you and they accept you the way you are then you are winning in this.

Anxiety isnt weakness. Living with anxiety , turning up and doing stuff with anxiety, takes strength most will never know.

To drink or not to….

Hi everyone.. Well this topic is probaly the most sensitive or aggravting to me. I use to think drinking would help my anxiety. Have a few beers or shots whatever just to losen me up so I can interact with everyone. That was good for me for about NEVER…

Drinking oh I love me a cold beer at the end of the day or basically anyday. It would give me this temporary feeling of just being cool and talkative. It just became my staple or go to whenever I would get anxious or nervous, I would think If i just do a shot and beer I could just be like everyone else not a care in the world and the anxiety would just go away. Until that one or two turned into about a 12 pack later and a few shots and my anxiety would come at me in full force outta no where. Like what the hell thought this was suppose to make this not happen. You would think after that happening to me so many times I wouldve stopped right?? Oh not this girl .. I would always try to make sense of it in my mind. Like that was just a fluke thing I wont let that happen again. Finally after so many years of doing this to myself , just letting me put my body thru this time after time and just basically giving up on ever really fixing myself, I just stopped !!! I had to. So many things happened in the meantime of all this and it was getting so outta control. I was letting anxiety take over my world in every aspect. When i say I just stopped of course it wasnt that easy shit I miss being able to have a beer at the end of the day. But what made it easy for me was when I forced myself for a few days not drinking and just barely feeling like I am making it with my anxiety and working. Something happened. I actually started to feel so much better. I eventually stopped for so long that I didnt take my anxiety medicine anymore. I woke up did my meditation and would totally forget about it all. I know it sounds crazy or too easy. But it really truly was at the end of it all. The way I started to feel and became more of myself and the person I know I am. Not the person with anxiety hiding in a corner thinking so much but not speaking it. When it came down to it drinking only masked myself and made me feel like i was who I wanted to be. But in all reality it really just made me the total opposite now that i can sit back with an unclouded mind. Now I know everyone story is different and drinking isnt always the issue or taking anxiety medicine doesnt bother people. I get it. Just for me I didnt want to be doing this forever depending on something meds or alcohol forever to think I am who I was always meant to be.

People with anxiety dont have a train of thought. We have seven trains on 4 tracks that narrowly avoid each other when paths cross, and all the conductors are screaming.